03172010
so i’m back on my anti-depressants. aka, i still feel pretty much the same way but now i can put a funny twist on it. i have also kept myself quite busy the past two days. i have learned how to crochet, which has helped me relax and forget everything that has been going on, even if it is just temporary. today i did some reading and some work for my thesis, which felt good because i had not been feeling inspired to do work at all, not even interested in researching autism, which is odd for me. now i feel like i get can back into the groove of it again and get some of it done before i am thrown back into everything that is stressful in my life; people and classes.
i spent $250 on scrapbooking supplies the other day. retail therapy, as i like to call it. it felt good to have the money and just be able to go and get the stuff that i typically just look at for months instead of buying it because of my anxiety. i have anxiety over everything apparently. but i bought lots of beautiful, fun stuff and i cannot wait to start using it. maybe i’ll bring all of my stuff outside tomorrow and work out there. considering it’s feeling like spring, i’ve really been trying to take advantage of it by spending as much time outside as i can. or on my back porch. either way, the weather is a mood lifter. feels good.
i’ve really been thinking about what things are going to be like next year when i’m living at home. katie is my best friend, and being away from her constantly is going to be difficult, we’ve really learned how to be extremely dependent on each other so distance is going to be difficult. the worry and anxiety of it is creeping up on me slowly but surely.
there are about nine weeks until i graduate college.
