07252009
i do not want to jinx things, but i really feel as if this summer is one of the summers that i will look back on fondly. so many peopled questioned if i would be able to do what i had planned for this summer; 3 summer classes, a job/internship, babysitting my sister, and taking 2 vacations some where in there. have they all been stressful in one way or another? of course, what isn’t? but as i’m sitting here right now, i remember summer’s full of crying, dying to fit in and be invited places, working my ass off at a dead end part time job, and wondering if someone is really my friend or not. not this summer, no.
i love my job/internship. i can’t believe that because of one phone call i have had this amazing experience with the most amazing people. i have mostly been working in the office, in which i work 3 days a week, but for one week i was able to do some direct care work. i worked in the summer camp program, and stepped completely outside of my comfort zone by working with teenagers with autism. and i thank whoever put me in that position everyday since because it was just the most amazing experience i could ask for. the first day, i’ll admit, was terrifying. but after that i was able to get to know the kids and just absolutely love them. i can’t even put the feeling into words, it was just like the push i needed to know that this is truly what i am supposed to be doing.
the week after that, last week, was disney world with my family. since we hadn’t been there in about 5 years, we were greatly looking forward to it, and it lived up to the anticipation. i had such an amazing time, i’ve been getting closer to my cousins lately and this just made it even better. [for a while we were all sort of distant, but this summer everything seems to be coming together. we’re all getting older and i think that’s pushing us closer together, and i couldn’t be happier about it.] it was like being a kid again, which sounds completely loser-ish but that’s fine, i can live with that. there is just something about disney that makes everything okay, and i have always said that. i get this feeling when i’m there that i don’t get anywhere else, and it’s just this genuinely good feeling, so pure and child-like. and i believe that my brother, cousins, and the rest of my family get that feeling from disney as well. Disney is such a generational tradition in my family, so when it comes down to it, it’s all about love.
OH! and i finally got my tattoo. peace, love, and mickey. i really am a big disney nerd.
oh and also, katie’s birthday? AMAZING! she visited staten island a few weeks ago and stayed at my houses for a few days and we had an awesome time [she’s in costa rica doing an amazing internship for 6 weeks]. next weekend janine is coming and i CANNOT WAIT! monday is kellie’s 17th birthday [wow!?], august 7th is the jason mraz concert with janine, dan, and ali, after that is wildwood with the fam, and soon after that is NEW PALTZ! i love having so much to look forward to =)
